We do not know what took place to mar the original, perfect creation, but it came into total ruin. Yet God did not allow His creation to remain in that empty, dark condition (waste and empty JND trans.). Nor does God want your heart and life to remain in an empty, void condition. "He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds" (Psa. 147:3). He lovingly tells us that "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9). And He assures us that He will not despise a "broken and contrite heart" (Psa. 51:17).
There is no need to despair of His blessing in your life, beloved young person. But there is a great need to draw near and hear Him, knowing that He is pure love and that He always receives with open arms returning children who come back in a repentant, humble, and contrite spirit (Psa. 34:18, Psa. 51, Prov. 28:13, Luke 15:11-32).
If there is confession and repentance, you may be assured that our gracious God will give you an answer of peace (Gen. 41:16) concerning a life's companion. Do trust Him!