For thy servant doth know that I have sinned: therefore, behold, I am come the first this day of all the house of Joseph to go down to meet my lord the king. 2 Samuel 19:20
AM 19:20{Yes, I have sinned. I know that I have sinned. Whether I feel it more or less does not touch the fact: I know it. And what then? "Therefore, behold, I am come the first this day of all... to meet my Lord the King." Just because I know I have sinned, I come to Jesus. He came to call sinners, He came to save sinners, so He came to call and to save me. "This is all my desire." Just because I know that I have sinned, I may and must come "the first of all." Thousands are coming, but the heart knoweth its own bitterness. So, not waiting for others, not coming in order, but "first of all," by the pressure of my sore need of pardon, I come. There is no waiting for one's turn in coming to Jesus. "The first of all," because it is against "my Lord the King" that I have sinned. I am His servant, so I have the greater sin. The first of all, because I have so much to be forgiven, and have already been forgiven so much, that I must, I do, love much; and love, even of a sorrowing sinner, seeks nearness, and cannot rest in distance. "Therefore," also, "I am come this day." I dare not and could not wait till tomorrow. No need to wait, even till tonight!
I bring my sins to Thee, the sins I cannot count,
That all may cleansed be in Thy once-opened Fount.
I bring them, Savior, all to Thee.
The burden is too great for me.