SOME few weeks ago it pleased my loving Lord and Master to call me aside for a “little while” in the chamber of sickness to tell me more of His will, and to show me more of His preciousness. When human strength seemed almost gone, and I lay unconscious of all that was passing in the world around, I seemed to be waiting to hear His word of command, what it should be, whether “to glory” or “to service.” A sweet voice from above said so lovingly, “Not now, my child, not now.”
“Enough, dear Lord,” I replied, and as I awoke to consciousness He told me why, in those touching words―
“Not now! For I have wanderers in the distance,
And thou must call them in with patient love.”
So I had only to wait till my strength was restored, praying, “Lord, make me meet for Thy use”; but it was not to be yet — Jesus had something more to reveal to me in the sick-chamber. A relapse of suffering came upon me, and, again unconsciousness of things around ensued, and again Jesus showed me how precious He was to my soul. I was suddenly called into a place filled with a glorious light — in color and brilliancy like the setting sun; but I was not satisfied — I could not see Jesus — Jesus was not there. I was, as it were, only in the ante-chamber, and as I awoke I said, “I only shall be I ‘see Him face to face’ and behold His glory.”