When we have settled we are going home, we have to wait here till He call. He may keep us for service, if He does not take us to rest. It is this that dear Bellett would not hear of; I suppose his time was come. We are His, not our own, and it is a privilege to serve, if better to be gone.
I find it a good thing to think of going, and feel my life depends on Him, not simply on age. The old Psalm version says, “Tarry thou the Lord’s leisure, be strong, and he shall stablish thy heart.”
Some have to wait in His hands, and as service is a privilege from Him, so the work is done by Him: but we ought to work from Himself. I have not felt any such call to work this time in London, though I have gone on, more entering into scripture latterly than ever, yet not a bit of it, directly at any rate, for use in speaking. I have been working up a little in case “I go home to be no more seen.”