Dear Sir,
I have just been reading in the June “Message from God” especially a letter signed H.W.R., and oh! how I wish I could have seen your answer to the writer, who says: “I am anxious to get right with your Do you think there is any hope for me? “Dear Sir, that is exactly my cry. Not that I have “professed conversion so many times in the past,” but from quite in my teens I have passed as a Christian. That is many years ago, and only quite recently, through a terrible sorrow coming to me, my eyes were opened to see that all these years I had built without a foundation. I kept praying that God would help me hear my sorrow (which I feel now would never have come if I had been His), and yet I felt so crushed by it. Then in the dark hours of the night the terrible truth came to me, that I had never really come to Him for salvation; so I was not His child after all. My life has been one long pain ever since I realized this, and I have prayed day and night, and yet I have not peace. The thought of my sins weighs upon me all the time. My waking thoughts are how can I live through another day with such a burden.
I know full well I must always be sad, because there are things that are unalterable, but oh! if I could know my sins were forgiven! Will you, dear Sir, plead with God for me, if you think it possible I can yet be a Christian? I read a case in “Gospel Gleanings,” May number, headed “A Solemn Warning,” of an aged man who found out late in life he had not the right thing, though he had preached and prayed for others. This gives me a faint hope that I may yet find peace. Oh! how strange it seems that I could so have deceived myself. It would have been so easy, and yet I drifted on, having heard the Word from a child. I cannot speak of these things to any, as I could not bear to pain those dear to me who are the Lord’s. But I must just be as bright as I can, and not sadden others with my trouble. Will you put a few words for me in the nest “Message”; an answer which I shall understand. I shall eagerly look for it. God grant I may find what I so earnestly long for.